| for some reason i find myself liking school more and more. i actually hate having to go especially when i feel like other people are having fun during that time, but once im in class i feel like im having a lot of fun. a made a couple of friends in class this time. their both girls. its pretty amazing isnt it? its amazing that id ever enjoy being in class and ever make friends with girls. sigh. i probably wont be friends with them after this class is over, but i would like to hope that maybe... just maybe that at least one of them will stay friends with after this class is over. and i know exactly which one id want to keep as a friend too.  i hope everyone is having a good day/nite. until next time this amber signing out...  |
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| i just got a job. i started on monday. some how i ended up working for a korean person again. hes really old too which also means that hes really old fashioned even here at work. he was is on my case bout everything. i started monday and the boss wasnt in the office that whole day. but day 2 he asked if i had breakfast and i said no, i dont usually eat breakfast. and out of no where he asked if my mom works outside of home. so i answered honestly, yes.and he said thats y u lived whatever way u left like. after that he went on saying that because this is a korean company i have to come in 5-10 mins earlier cuz work doesnt start when u walk in it starts when u actually start working. he later came up to me and ask what ive been doing and why have i not learned the program already and my sister has. so i said this was the first time ive ever worked in a place that had nething to do with architecture. and i held back and didnt say nething the rest of the day. and then day 3 he told me to learn auto cad(architectual program) from my sister. So i said she doesnt live with us so i wont be able to. and he said that my parents didnt raise us right cuz children arent supposed to leave their parents home until they get married. so now its day 4 and this morning i did come 10 mins early and i brought a piece of bread. and then he says not to eat stuff like that cuz its bad for me. there stuff in it that prevents it from getting old. and it also has too much sugar. that made me so mad cuz i dont think he should worry bout what i eat. but he says because its a korean company and to be smart and work hard i have to eat a good and healthy mean. and the best meal is to hace rice. SIGH!! i really hate this old man!!! but the only reason im having a hard time leaving here is because of the pay isnt bad, hours work out very well with skool, there arent many phonecalls so i dont have much to do, they let me study here, but with that time i also watch a lot of anime. but staying like this is boring and it doesnt feel like im working at all. i like be busy at work if im supposed to be working. it doesnt feel like to study in a work place. do i have the wrong idea about all of this? should i just b grateful and take whatever comes my way here and just stick it out. sigh.. i guess at this time i dont have much of a choice. |
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| i dont know how to be kind and still be COMPLETELY honest with people. i want to tell everyone everything, but i dont even have to courage to say all that i want and not be afraid of regret. i feel the need to reflect on my thoughts and what im going to say and how im going to say things to the people that need to know it. i want to be happy. but at the same time... i want the people around me to be happy too. but not very many of the people around seem to be. and i think thats what makes me really sad. |
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| it was pretty crazy! i took my cuzins andy n justin. i think they had fun. although i probaby should ask... neways. i would like to thank Benjamin No for comin out n hangin out with me n my cuzins. i didnt think i wouldve been able to hit one ball but i did! i hit like 3 balls on the 40 mph, one on the 50 mph and one on the 60 mph. oh.. and i hit the slow pitchs like a lot! im so proud of myself! even though its not really nething to really be proud of i still am. even know i know no one probably cares.. I DO! ^^ |
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| im at work now and im just thinkin to myself bout what other jobs i can find that i can actually do well. and even hopefully find people who are at least polite. my job rite now has koreans boss whos stingy and calls peoples names and he also have a very harsh tone. my manager whos kind but when it comes to workin shes really stiff and a little hard to meet eye to eye with. my office manager who doesnt know how to say thank you or your welcome. she also shops online WAY too much and talks to me like im do everything wrong with a sigh before every phrase. my coworkers... one who smokes way too much. and other whos always high. technically he needs to be high to work properly. but the tho coworkers r pretty chill. theyre actually really nice people. i just dont like smoke that much. they kinda smell like cigerettes like.. all the time. newayz.. if nething new happens... well c if neone reads this tho.  |
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